© Beneath and Within Self

If you could create a skin that absorbs your fallacy of self esteem how would you sew the artificial fabric???

Would you knit the strands of yearning courage that's buried in your imagination in your genes to build a fearless genetic or
would you sew it in a pair of your jeans to attract attentioñ?

Attention that could never appreciate the apparel for the character beneath it?

What color would this skin be? Dark as indigo chocolate to hide the fears and insecurity? White as transparent to be seen through and looked past rather than searched with in? All again in attempt to camouflage your secured fears from others?

How would you sew this skin of yours..

Thick I would figure with an internal zip lining only you can open when you need to escape from your facade of self.. but yet you may be to disgusted with your truth of self to unzip your foreign fabric fully

And now you’re caught between your existence and your exit into your true self...

What would this skin you knit taste like?

A beautiful birth that grows to hate life? Or stars that chase nights drunk off the moon?
Or would it taste like the Caucasian sperm that drips from the vulva of a violated enslaved African woman??

Or would the flavor of this skin be numb from your true flesh beneath it beating it to escape?

You're playing chess with no heart..

You can clone your body but u can't clone your spirit

Anyone can own your body and your spirit once you leave them exposed trying to be a soul you're not

This skin you're in is folding knots to a noose
You misunderstand sides like the level between a ceiling and a roof

Allow the growth of feeling in your truth
Even deep spoons have to lean in to scoop

Find yourself or loose your self to where archaeologist can't bring science to

You're attempting to walk quick sand with high end shoes
...theré's no such music as "high end blues"...

Be You



R-Vin H. {Ink} ©2012

Mirror

I Don’t Want To Act Like I Love You and I Don’t Want To Convince/Force My Self To Love You Just Because I Like You A lot
I Want To Love You Genuinely
This is why I Take My Time With You/Us

:Mirror:

Loving Self

You Can Accuse Me of Acting Like I’m Perfect but I’m Truly Guilty of Loving A lot of Who I Am…

And it Took a Journey to Get Where I Feel About Me

I Learned to Discover Me, Fix what I disliked and Build Up Self-Worth to Love Who I Am

Love U

The Last Person You Need to Loose is Yourself..

When You Love yourself you have a High Appreciation of Self and Low Tolerance for Disrespect towards your Character and the Love you Spread that you're not Obligated to

But for this Self Love to Evolve you Must Refuse to Loose You to be something else you believe you need to be

There's No Feeling like Self Appreciation.. It's too Fuckin Genuine to Miss Out on

Self Worth

Question your Self (Worth/Love)

Why would you allow people with negative energy to be continuous on your path?

Why would you allow someone to treat you less than you deserve continuously?

Do you know your worth?

Do you know your self?

How Far will you allow someone to go beyond the respect line?

Do you Question how You Treat your Self yet not Question the Decisions YOU make of Who YOU allow in YOUR Life?

Do you take time for self?

Instead of jumping from Relationship to Relationship to Feel Accepted and Loved
Once you take time to Discover Yourself You will know Exactly what You Want and Need in your Next Relationship

Do you treat yourself to lunch?
Cook for your self?
Spend Quality time with You?

Do you have Goals that you Refuse to Quit on? Do You Laugh Enough?

How many Positive or Negative Thoughts go through your Mind when Life Struggles happen?

Learn Yourself Know Yourself and Love Yourself

And like Everything else in Life this Takes Time and Courage… Be Patient

Denied Beyond Friendship

FRIEND
Considerate
Thoughtful
Cooks for You
Spends Quality Time
Has no Chance
Better Financial Status
More Trust Worthy
Goes Out of Way
Respect is Shown


BOY FRIEND
Could Careless
Doesn’t Give Much Thought About You
Takes You to The Neighborhood Fast Food Spot
Spends Most Time with his Peeps
Gets Every Chance to Fuck Up Repeatedly
Always Borrowing Money and Never Repaying
Trust Always in Question
Sometimeish’
Disrespect in concurrent in the Relationship


Male Friend: I like you, I Liked you for a while. I can see us on a good path together. I think we should give a relationship a chance.

Female Friend: Oh no., We can’t be together. I don’t want to loose the trust and comfort i have with you. I can confide in you and you don’t judge me for everything. As much as i love you as a friend you’re not my type relationship wise.


I’m not saying the Friend is perfect.. he just has a genuine love/respect for his female friend.. wants to see her happy: This isn't all women just some. Some women know that the volatile situation they're in with the boyfriend is poison and refuse to be involved in a relationship beyond a friendship with a friend.

It comes down to Self Worth and Judgement... Maybe the female friend is at a place in her life where she needs a no good dude to satisfy her current situation as a whole... maybe

Someone Explain the Logic of This to Me

Fake "Friends"

Watch out for fake friends
When they see you succeed their envy and jealousy will show its ass in many ways Fake smiles and hugs that aren't genuine and your spirit will tell your mind
but sometimes your heart refuses to accept because you love and believe in this friend

Sometimes it takes people out side of your circle to put you on to your fake "friends"
You have people who fail in life, because they quit or never tried, who see you go hard on your path and attain your goals and they despise you for their own down fall

Then you have people who support you to see how the can benifit from your achievements in life

The worse of these fake friends are family

Know who's in your circle... make sure they're positive, progressive on their on path as well as yours.. make sure they're genuine and you're not wasting your trust/time/existence with them